my odd behavior

everything will be explained soon enough...

up and down

long day at work but it was fun

still missing my kitty so im sad

ate some awesome pho for dinner and was introduced to an avacado beverage that was awesome

now sitting in my bed wishing dusty was snuggling....

MISSING KITTY!!!!

MISSING BLACK CAT!!!

She is a solid black, very petite, cat with bright green eyes. Many people think she isnt full grown but she is 3. She goes by Dusty.

Lost her around 2 this afternoon is the fan off grove.

She is an indoor cat and will probably be meowing her little heart out.

Please, if you find her, get in contact with me!

804.441.1606

thank you

BEAUTIFUL DAY

CONGRATS SJ AND ASH!!! YOUR WEDDING WAS BEAUTIFUL <3

FIRST FRIDAY!!!

COME CHECK IT OUT! I'LL BE THERE COOKING AWAY AND HANGINIG SHIT UP AND CHILLIN HARD!!!

ugh connie!

I just wish they would understand that I have to keep my feelings guarded. That I can't be around someone I like because I know I would get hurt. I have done my share of hurting but I'm also the one who gets walked on and crush at the end. Maybe one day I'll be able to be their friend, when Im not worried about my feelings.

RUMORS

finding some good shit there, you should check'em out!

he just not that into you

ah, there are too many pretty 19-21 year old girls in this fucking city.

PUNK ROCK PROM

Join us lovely and ambitious women of the Richmond Women’s Collective in our first community event, in which we invite you to wear don your finest, grab a date, and join us at Punk Rock Prom! There will be a photoshoot upon arrival, local DJ’s, a surprise band, bowling, and more! Let loose and enjoy that prom experience again or like you’ve never had!

Mother's Day

It's no fun when you don't have a mom...

just a regular sunday for me. Going grocery shopping and the gym....yippie

im so lucky

I'm in a drama free setting..

i have a great job
going on great adventures
great friends
great roommate

and on the roomie topic for one second. i have been talking to people over the past week, and the general consensus has been that people can't have both. they can't have a good friend AND good roomie. just one or the other. i am so excited that my best friend is my roomie. and her friendship comes first, always.and im thinking im gonna quit drinking. i haven't smoked in awhile and i did that more then drinking so, why the fuck not? and i have had more fun in the past few weeks sober then all the times i have been drunk. ah, the feeling is so good, it makes me think of kittens...

so torn...

the old shows


the new shows



both are still great, i just rather not worry about getting hurt at a show these days..

Missed Connection...

AJ informed me that I got one. But I don't remember talking to a boy about my tattoo, so I thought it was for Emily. But she doesn't have a zombie tattoo, and she thinks its for me, so I guess its for me. Anyways, I'm flattered that someone in this city thinks im cute.


girl at world of mirth - m4w - 20 (carytown)
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a few times i've been there, and you are always so nice. im the guy that asked you about your zombie tattoo and just want to tell you your cute and to say thanks for the help!

home sweet home

ah....finally starting to get comfortable in my new place.

new place
new friends
new memories
new life

new and improved me

cinco de mayo

tomorrow starts off my chiller days. I have two days off ina row. what to do, what to do...

Ah

people call me a bitch for being honest, but fuck it. When your honest and open with motives and feelings, no one gets hurt.

support hef!

acoustic show with local artists @ the courtyard (304 n. adams street) on first fridays with... landis from cinemasophia, john from milkstains, shannon keeter on the piano, maybe matt & nick from surprise! arizona, and ward combs!

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!

Someone hates when people do not update their blogs so i thought I'd check up on mine.

Moved into my new apartment
Work
Hang out wif my new awesome friend AJ
Work
Taco Bell
Work
Dance Parties
Work
Gym
Work

Im working on my old bosses site, Main Tattoo, so that will be updated in the next week or so. Hmm what else...as always, I love Hef. Gotta go shopping with Casey! Later Days!

WHO AM I?

I live in sumatra and I eat my own poop....who am i?


we had blast, wish you came along!

Frustrating

Why am i so socially awkward?

I'm a babbling idiot with new/pretty faces, why can't I be me?

Ugh, so annoying.

Anywho, went to Spring Bada Bing with Thea today for the store. SO much fun.

SUPPORT LOCAL ARTISTS!

That is all....

10 more lbs to go!!!!

So those of you who have known me since at least high school, know how small I used to be. Since my mom got sick and then later passed, I gained a substaintial amount of weight. I wont use her as an excuse, I got lazy, and then comfortable with nelson, and then more lazy and then finally too busy to get back in shape. But those days are over. I started working on myself back in late october and have lost a lil over 20 lbs! The actual number has never been a huge deal, but it has helped me set a goal and I have almost achieved it. I don't want to be thin. I want to be healthy. I have 10 lbs left in order for my goal to be met, and for me to be healthy. I'm excited and I can't wait. I feel tons better already and miss being active and athletic.

just do it

keep my name out of your fucking mouth guys... is it that hard?i know your just trying to be a good friend to him, but just leave it as it is...none of your fucking business.

that is all

everyone have a good weekend. Easter is coming, watch out for huge bunnies!

fun weekend

Shitty night turned Fun morning

I don't know why i let them get to me. I know they are just trying to be good friends to him, but come on. If him and I can be friendly and talk and not shit talk each other, why do the boys need to be involved. I was hurt really bad last night by some of his douchbag friends. I cried, and cried, and cried till Heather finally calmed me down. I know all that matters is that me and him are cool. Fuck the rest, but I've known these boys for quite some time now and I never expected it from them.

Heather and I went out after the bullshit cry fest and I really wasn't enjoying the amazing company like I should have. Then, since some friends of mine couldn't get into Ipanema, I went with them to cous cous, followed by hanging out at her house. We had a blast. Really cheered me up. Didn't get to bed till 5:30 this morning; And had to wake up only a few hours later to see a friends mom. All in all, the good outweighed the bad...

"Im her mom!" "No shes not!"

NEW ROOMIE!

I was really down about my situation when i was at work the other day, and katie thought it would be a good idea to go look at apartments; so i did. I wasent expecting much, but I found my apartment. A huge 2 bedroom for the right price. I couldnt believe it so I dragged heather out of work to see and she loved it. I was origninally looking for me and another girl. We went to lunch after seeing the apartment so she could tell me her opinion and we ended up talking eachother into living together. I am still giddy about what we are doing and excited I will be living with her. It only makes sense because we are such good friends. She is one of the few people i know are responsible and trustworthy and respectful. And I love Jake(her pup) Its a match made in heaven.

Dentist part deux

Thanks Dr Mueller! your smart ass jokes about my shortness and the fact that my cavity wasen't as bad as you thought it was made my day.two more appointments with you and ill have a healthy smile:-) If your in Richmond and need a dentist:

http://www.grovesmiles.com/
I have Dr Mueller

Should I stay or should I go now

I have been getting a lot of email from family asking me to live with them now that nels and i are split. so i will just say this:

I AM STAYING IN RICHMOND AND TAKING MY CHANCES. I love my ladies and I need them right now and I need my city. Richmond is for me and I am here to stay. Besides, i already got tickets to matt and kim and i love snuggling with Hef...

Facebook

I got on face book. i did it so i could follow info on Richmond Womens collective. so check it out and find me so we can keep in touch

SURPRISE! DC

all in all a fun weekend. we didnt get to see mama hef which was kinda a bummer but we got to see our first hockey game, first dc dance party and first brunch in dc with 2 dollar mimosas. thanks guys for showing us dc. but its not nearly as amazing as richmond! also we had a lil meeting with marshe tonight about Richmond Womens Collective. Im so excited its getting started up again. I think it will be better than ever now that they're are some amazing women contributing to marshes wonderful creation.

C - A - P - S CAPS CAPS CAPS!

DC HERE WE COME!

I have been in Richmond for too long. Its not a long road trip but good enough. HEF and I are going up to see her mama, see some friends, and go to a hockey game. Should be fun. I just wish the weather was nicer. We were really hoping we could go to the Zoo. But I guess that wont happen. Thank goodness I have rain boots now!

HEF

shes awesome. thanks for letting me crash with you till i get situated. Stoked about our road trip this weekend!

yes i work here

and its rad, i know your jealous:-) but its cool, come in and play!

wake up

I woke up this morning feeling a huge load off my shoulders. I think since I was sleep deprived for 3 straight days in a row, that when I was finally able to sleep last night, my brain kind of rebooted. I got plans in the making and I got some awesome friends that will be there next to me when I'm doing them. Last week I was petrified that I would have Nelson to fall back on for everything, but now I now I can handle it. Its going to take hard work and fun times to make this successful, and I'm willing to put in the hours. Thanks nelson for giving me space and not be a jerk. Your a good dude and I hope the next lady can make you happier than I did:-) Because I know I'm a pretty hard act to follow:-P But So are you...

SURPRISE! RICHMOND

thanks SURPRISE ARIZONA for playing at our event and hangin out!

it was a good weekend

Im done

I have to withdraw this semester

Im not going to guam

By best friend is gone

and i have no money

what have i gotten myself into?

I know it will get better. I have a great support system. I'm just going to miss him.

DAY 3: Clinicals

It was great. Had an amazing patient; the nurses were great; ll of us in our class are starting to come out of our shells and get-to-know one another. Just an extremely pleasant day.

what an idiot

i love her terminology.

Happy Valentines Day

mom

i miss her. today it the 3rd year anniversary since she died.

word of the day

Crispy

as in:
that shit wasen't just hot, it was crispy. i learned that on america's best dance crew last night.

that is all

AHHH!

My car door lock was frozen this morning and my attempts of jiggling broke my lock. Fucking VW's...ugh

HELPNELSONE.COM

1st week of school

crazy but i love it! its crazy that the one class i am taking is almost equal to being a full-time student. I just got my scrubs. I order my stethoscope on wednesday. My lecture teacher is amazing. my lab teacher, not so much. Can't wait till clinicals.

Dentists...

Went to the dentist this morning, and was absolutely terrified. I haven't been to the dentist once since I was 6 or 7 and I was sedated because I was so scared. Valerie recommended her office, and so I went. See, I haven't been to any doctor in ages because I don't have insurance. And I felt so shitty, when the receptionist was chipper and sweet, till she found out I didn't have insurance, and then she was the total opposite. Anywho, when i was called I went to the back and the assistant was great. Then Dr. Muller came in and was funny and nice. Very laid back. Said his silly dentist jokes, counted my teeth, told me what I needed done, and filled out my physical sheet. THAT WAS IT! No Drills. No Mean disappointed expressions on his face. No lashings about how bad my teeth were ( which by the way 3 cavities. not bad for someone who hasn't been seen in over 15 years). He said as soon as I get insurance though he wants me to come in and get fillings, and a cleaning. He also said he could fix my snaggle tooth. And he complimented me on my white teeth. WHY DOES EVERYONE DO THAT? One of the 1st things people tell me is "wow you have really white teeth". Are they really that white? Bc I have seen whiter ones ( and straighter ones).LOL, WHATS YOUR OPINION ON THAT? SHOULD I? i really want to, but some people said thats just me, and I have had it for so long now that it would take away me. But fuck that, I want a pretty smile. But I'd have to get braces. And at 23, that just isn't cute anymore.

So, I recommend Grove Ave dentistry.


THE END

So I'm a little late

My New Years Declaration:

- Kick ass in Nursing School, pick a specialty.
- Lose 15 lbs by my birthday
- START learning Tagalog
- Not smoke another cig' again & limit drinking
- Eat less meat, and try new foods
- Be nicer to nelson
- Learn to manage stress

Most of those are already being started but I feel more motivated to do more this year. I am not going to be one of those people who overwhelms themselves anymore. I am not going to take Nelson for granted anymore; and I wont take my health for granted anymore.

I almost didn't think I would be able to pursue Nursing anymore, so now I want to work harder. So next year, I will be graduated and not so stressed out; living in Guam, and finally having family close by.

NELSONE FUNDRAISING

My dear friend Heather set this up for Nelson. Thank you so much honey, your amazing and thanks everyone for being so concerned for him.




with a sudden case of gall-pancreatitis - put nelson in the hospital in urgent need for surgery. leaving nelson and connie in financial hardships as they are undertaking an insurance lapse, giving them one more month to wait to be covered. and with all the economic struggle we are all going through right now, any little bit does help.
thank you!
donate

Bills

It funny that up until now in my adult life, I have never been late on a single payment. Now we are a statistic. We are now another number of the many americans who are overwhelmed by costly medical expenses as well as our monthly regular bills. This is just fantastic.

WHAT A BEGINNING TO A NEW YEAR

So 2009 hasn't started so great. Tuesday, Dec.30, I got a call from Nelson saying he was feeling really sick and in a lot of pain so when as soon as i got off work, I took him to Patient First. After they checked him out, they suggested we go to the emergency room. After going to MCV and getting shit from some rude registration lady, I took him to St. Mary's, where we found out that she had gall-pancreatitis. i wont get into details but it was pretty bad. His liver and pancreas were failing and he needed surgery asap. So we rang in the New Years in the hospital, and got surgery the following day. He was out by Sunday, but he is still in a lot of pain and still recovering from surgery. I highly recommend St. Mary's if you live in the Richmond area. I have always hated MCV because of they way my mother was cared for there. I am also a little peeved about how one of his friends reacted to the news that Nelson was in the hospital. The friend was having a party new years eve that we were supposed to attend and we could not make it obviously because Nelson was so sick that he had to be hospitalized for almost a week. So I texted his friend saying "we cant make the party, nelson is in the hospital and needs surgery asap." You would think the friend would be alarmed by this news and wonder if he is ok. Which is how everyone else we knew reacted. But no, this supposed friend just replied, " WORD, cool".
WORD, COOL??? Are you serious? What a good friend. Fuck that, I'm sorry, but it hurt.

On a good note, a lot of people were supportive and helped me a lot with Nelson, so for them, thank you. It meant the world to me. And even though i just started working at World of Mirth, the girls have been amazing and understanding and i love them to pieces. And I got to talk to Nelsons dad for the 1st time ever in the 8 years I've known Nelson.

More later, thanks for reading